So on my FB page I've been posting, promising to post a blog for a
week or so and I guess I should actually do what I said, so here goes.
I think I kind of wanted to write
about my 3 month anniversary at work, yeah people are probably going 3 months
is nothing. But for me it kind of feels everything, apart from it being
the end of my trial period, it’s just another week, another day I'm in a job
where I feel appreciated. I freely admit I've never been that confident
in my own abilities, a lot of time as my Mum has said people see things in me
that I don't see in myself.
She has often said I should look in
a mirror and say to myself that I can do it and I should do it as many times,
as many days as it takes until I believe it. Still it’s hard as I'm
approaching 6 years in Israel, I realise how tough it has been for me to
settle. There are days I do feel like I've settled, then there are days
where I feel like I want to run and hide. I'm sure that a lot of my fears and
worry, especially work related ones are down to my previous place of work.
As people who know where I was and how tough it was, to now be in
atmosphere where you send a report and receive a well done or constructive
criticism on where you went wrong is such a difference, it makes going into
work nice.
I'm still learning, still finding
my feet and I'd like to think people in the company are now used to me being
around, going to find it a bit tough next week and 3 days after that as the
next person up in my department is away for the Chaggim and I will be
essentially acting as the deputy to the Head of the department and also I have
to brief my fellow legal staff member who is returning from Maternity Leave.
So I have a lot of work to do coming up and my Mum is right, any time I
feel like I can't do it, no matter how stupid or even if people can hear me, I
have to look in the mirror and tell the person staring back that 'I can do
this'.
As tomorrow is Rosh Hashanah I
would like to wish my Jewish family and friends Shanah Tovah - May we all have a good and sweet
year ahead.
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