Tuesday 19 September 2017

3 month and a few weeks on :-)

So on my FB page I've been posting, promising to post a blog for a week or so and I guess I should actually do what I said, so here goes.

I think I kind of wanted to write about my 3 month anniversary at work, yeah people are probably going 3 months is nothing.  But for me it kind of feels everything, apart from it being the end of my trial period, it’s just another week, another day I'm in a job where I feel appreciated.  I freely admit I've never been that confident in my own abilities, a lot of time as my Mum has said people see things in me that I don't see in myself.

She has often said I should look in a mirror and say to myself that I can do it and I should do it as many times, as many days as it takes until I believe it.  Still it’s hard as I'm approaching 6 years in Israel, I realise how tough it has been for me to settle.  There are days I do feel like I've settled, then there are days where I feel like I want to run and hide. I'm sure that a lot of my fears and worry, especially work related ones are down to my previous place of work.  As people who know where I was and how tough it was, to now be in atmosphere where you send a report and receive a well done or constructive criticism on where you went wrong is such a difference, it makes going into work nice.  

I'm still learning, still finding my feet and I'd like to think people in the company are now used to me being around, going to find it a bit tough next week and 3 days after that as the next person up in my department is away for the Chaggim and I will be essentially acting as the deputy to the Head of the department and also I have to brief my fellow legal staff member who is returning from Maternity Leave.  So I have a lot of work to do coming up and my Mum is right, any time I feel like I can't do it, no matter how stupid or even if people can hear me, I have to look in the mirror and tell the person staring back that 'I can do this'.

As tomorrow is Rosh Hashanah I would like to wish my Jewish family and friends Shanah Tovah - May we all have a good and sweet year ahead.