Saturday, 19 August 2017

Feeling Appreciated

It’s hard not to feel sometimes taken for granted, or a little lost or overwhelmed. Especially with something new.  And I am the first to admit that I have in recent weeks in the new job felt a little out of my depth.  Although after nearly 3 months is it still a new job, is it really just the job!

Anyway after all this time I'm still finding my rhythm there, but as I've probably written it’s so much different than my last place, then again anywhere could have been a lot different and nicer than the last place of work.  What has made it seem more friendly, more welcoming is when the Head of my department has asked for reports from me on something and if it hasn't been what he wanted, I haven't got back an email with 'garbage' 'busha' or sloppy and shameful and no explanation as to what is wrong.  Here in my new office I've received feedback and explanation of what needs to be changed.  It’s quite a turnaround to receive constructive criticism and also good positive feedback, whether in one case it was the head of my department walking past and giving me a thumbs up or walking past with a well done.  After the last office and the atmosphere there, I never believed I would feel comfortable in the job, that the last place had damaged my confidence in my abilities, but while I'm still learning and definitely still a little unsure of myself.  I feel more settled and it’s nice if someone is sending an email that my contributions are being noted.

Socially wise, I've actually had a nice and busy week, I was planning to be out tonight, but due to circumstances I'm staying in... Which actually sounds fantastic, so I can get an early night lol.  But my weekend has been really good as have most of my evenings this past week and it was nice for a change of pace to have a Friday night with friends instead of my usual stay at home by myself.  So thanks to Ronny and Dana for the invite.

Anyway, I hope you like reading and leave a comment please, please :-).

Saturday, 12 August 2017

Birthday Blog

Well I've not blogged for a few weeks, been busy etc.  Nice to actually say that.  Anyway as most of you know... well probably because I told you it was my 39th and 12 months birthday two days ago. 

So it was a fun day, started with a massage and breakfast at Herods Hotel (thank you groupon).  Then some shopping, relaxing, picking up a package from my friend Mark, love the t-shirt he sent.  Nice cards from my parents, lots of messages on Facebook and drunken frivolity at a bar in Tel Aviv... I mean nice, relaxed drinking... because I don't get drunk... ;-) After all I'm 40 now and I should behave. Work was also pretty nice as they day before, before I came to work they decorated my desk and from my department they gave me a gift voucher and cake :-).  And from the company itself I also got a gift voucher.  Certainly is different from other places I have worked.

Anyway work is going well, it’s now been 2 and a half months and I'm settling in I believe.  It’s very hard work and I am feeling the pressure, but I'm doing my best and I hope my superiors are happy with me.  Still I've had meetings with Japan, Hong Kong, France, Australia, UK and Germany.  I'm preparing reports for them and it’s tough, as I have to be much focused and then there is other stuff I need to do.  I am actually doing the job of two people at the moment as the other person is on Maternity leave. Still I'm doing fine I hope.

Otherwise I had an visitor from England which was nice and socially I've managed to get out and I have things to look forward to coming up over the next few weeks, so I'm feeling only good things are here for me.

Saturday, 22 July 2017

Working fine

So another week has passed, I'm nearly at the 2 months stage of being in the office and I'm really starting to feel at home in this office. Had a moment when I received an email from outside the people I usually deal as a result of actions I had taken on behalf of the company as part of my job.  My supervisor laughed, apparently I wasn't the first to receive emails from someone regarding things we have done.  Still was strange but also amusing to feel that I am actually doing something that makes a difference to the company.

Still I have a lot of work to do and it’s a lot of responsibility.  But I am feeling up to the task, even though it’s very daunting.  I am currently working on checking all the areas my department deals with and it’s a lot of work.  Especially as I can't focus on this solely as I have other things coming up that I need to take care of.  I am coping though, I'm asking questions and I feel that everyone sees I'm doing a good job and getting slowly but surely used to everything.

Otherwise apart from work, I've been trying to exercise more as I'm still trying to lose weight, not always successfully as the last two weigh INS have proved where I've put back a kilo :-(.  Still I'm getting out there and had a couple of long walks in the last few days.

Work wise while I'm getting settled finally, I feel still a bit socially unsorted. It’s not that I don't have the time or make the effort, but there are times when I feel like I'm the one making all the effort with friends, I mean sure there are times I do sit waiting for the phone call, but it takes effort on both sides and sometimes I feel that unless I post a blog or something on Facebook, it would not be noticed that I was not around.

Maybe it’s all in my head, I suppose as I get closer to my birthday, I'm dwelling on the past year and what I have and have not accomplished... still got a visit from a friend from the UK for a couple of week from next weekend, a birthday party arranged by my friend down south and my own party arranged by me to look forward.  Also at some point, will arrange a spa day for my birthday, after all why shouldn't I relax on my 40th... yes I said it... I'm going to be 40 in less than 3 weeks now....

Anyway for now, I'm off to beat up people on the PS4, because I'm Batman... hope you like and will comment, bye for now.

Tuesday, 18 July 2017

Feeling accomplished

Small update. Although I'm feeling a little unaccomplished in life outside of work, I'm feeling a little proud of myself in work. I'm finally finding my feet and feeling like I'm doing good work here.  I was talking about it with a former colleague and they said that it sounds interesting and like real legal work.

I never imagined I would end up working in the legal field and dealing with legal matters such as contracts and matters related to Intellectual Property.  I mean 20 years ago in September I went to Middlesex University to study a degree in Media and Cultural Studies with Film Studies, intent on finding a job in the media after graduation, if I had graduated lol... I did with a 2:2 and instead of the media, I found myself in retail and then office services and then railway industry and then to Israel with various jobs and now almost 20 years since I started University I'm working in a field and in a position, which I feel like I'm accomplishing something.  

I don't know how long it will last, but I want to enjoy this feeling while it lasts.

So that's all going in my head, plus 3 and a bit weeks to my birthday.

Also the 13th Doctor is a woman, if you don't like it deal with it.  As long as she is given good material to work with, she will do great. Although if you read some comments it’s the end of the world.

Okay, thanks for reading, leave a comment after the full stop :-)

Saturday, 15 July 2017

Feeling Meh

Well it’s been a couple of weeks since I last posted, last week’s thrilling instalment of my blog, which I'm sure you all loved, was on hold, due to a four legged house guest and also wasn't much too tell really.

So I've now been in the new job for 6 weeks and it feels good, this week, I've done more and learnt a little bit more.  I actually was requested to do some legal work.  I'd spotted something that affected the trademarks we hold and after reporting to the boss, I was asked to think about what action we could take, now obviously I'm not a lawyer and apart from a short module on law back in college/school I'm not sure what we can do, so it was looking online and then checking with the lawyer to see what we could do.  I think my answers were correct and there is now more to take, but just waiting for the boss to answer.

Otherwise apart from work, been quiet, except for the house guest who as usually sat around, did nothing, expected me to feed her, take her for walks, allow to sit on my bed... you know the usual, still it’s fun to have her, watch her run around and write on Facebook.

However, I'm feeling a bit down outside of work, not sure what's wrong, just don't feel myself these days out of the office, feeling a bit isolated and alone... maybe its related to the fact I'm going to be 40 in less than 4 weeks and I'm alone and feeling like that, not just in terms of being in a relationship, but in some ways with friends generally.... I mean there are people who are a lot younger who seem to have everything they want or I would want and I feel envious and I don't want to be and I want what they have and yet it seems like every time I try to break the cycle of this, nothing happens. Or maybe I'm just being silly.  IF you're reading this and you're my friend maybe you can help me, maybe you can help me get out of this funk I'm feeling trapped in.  But that would also mean someone is reading everything I write here... someone who isn't a family member...

Stuck in a rut and I can't get out of it!!!

Saturday, 1 July 2017

One Month on

So I've completed my first month in the new job, still feels weird to be there, still getting used to it all, but I'm doing well I think.  One of my new colleagues said that it will take a month to get used to the people and 3 months used to the job itself.  Well after a month I'm comfortable with the people, even if I don't remember everyone's names yet.

As for the job itself, I'm still learning and doing new things each week.  The main focus though for me seems to be internet spot checks for our products where they should not be.  It’s time-consuming but I'm getting the hang of that.  I've also been asked to write reports on the findings, which is something I'm not sure I'm getting the hang of.  I don't think I've ever been really good at reports, usually I'm very plain and basic in that regard and these obviously need to be direct and to the point and also a little specific.  Still I've worked on one this week, gotten feedback and sent it back with changes, so let’s see what happens tomorrow.

I'm also going to be shown more stuff to do, that will be my responsibility.  I am finding it a little tough as I'm the only paralegal there so there is a lot of work sent my way.  Plus with the person training me, also got a lot of work there is not as much time for training.  In this respect I wish there was either a handbook or the other Paralegal was not out on Maternity Leave as I would probably be spending all my time sat next to them learning how to do the job.  I suppose on the reserve side of things, I'm learning on the fly and its going well.

Although some people have realized where I work and have asked do I get discounts on the products... yes Dana, yes Davina I'm looking at you two :-).

Otherwise, I'm still trying to find the balance between work and social life, but I'm sure that will come.  I did get out for Laila Levan on Thursday night and hang with friends and soak up the atmosphere which pretty cool and I also managed to visit my friends in Kiryat Bialik and have lunch with them and apparently agree to dog sit for Kiki, so people The Kiki diaries will reappear as will lots of Kiki pictures.  Just warning you all in advance.

Anyway that's all for now, hope you guys are keeping well, leave a comment, let me know what you think.

Friday, 23 June 2017

Some weeks are tougher than others

So I finished my 3rd week and this week felt tougher than the first two.  I think it’s down to more work being sent my way which is good, because I don't like not being busy, but as I'm still learning it’s tough.

One of my colleagues told me that I shouldn't worry and that in her opinion, it takes a month to get used to the place and the people and 3 months to get used and know the job.  All I know is I've felt a bit off this week.  I think I figured it out in that as some people know I did a previous stint as a Paralegal here in Israel and it didn't go well and I was only there for 3 and a bit weeks and I think with this being my 3rd week I was feeling a little apprehensive about it all.  I'm not sure why though, as my supervisor says I'm doing fine so far and while I'm not doing a lot, I'm trying to learn and expand my knowledge if there is something I do not know.  I'm asking questions as well and talking to other staff if they can help me.

I have though found the task that I think I'm never going to like, even if I ever get to understand it LOL.  But still there is always a job within a job that we don't like doing :-).

But yeah 3 weeks in, still feels new but I'm getting there and I hope in a few months, all the doubts I have about this new job and worry about doing a good job are a thing of the past.

Other news, had an enjoyable time seeing former colleagues at the wedding of Moran and Elad.  It was fun and a hearty Mazal tov to you both.  To my former colleagues I hope to see you all soon.

Otherwise it’s pretty much same old, same old.  Putting my non-work thoughts into what I can do for my birthday in 7 weeks.  Suggested some things and people have said what they think, I just have to make the decision what we actually do. All I know as well as the evening event, I won't work on my birthday for the first time in a while and I want to do something during the day.  So if anyone has ideas what I can do during the day time please suggest away.

So, I hope you all have a great weekend, be in touch.